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[May. 24th, 2005|10:25 pm] |
omg hahahahhaha
my mom: "i voted for american idol 5 times!!!!! i have it on redial"
"i would die if you got a big black room mate"
"at night your gunna see two white eyes looking at you"
"whatcha lookin at white face get out of my face"
"why you were black nail polish!!"
"im gunna get to ten!! woooooooooooo i just got threw!!!!"
"thank god its a toll free call"
"im tired" |
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[May. 24th, 2005|03:57 pm] |
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i would go out everyday too if i wasnt jeopardizing my ability to graduate. |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|01:32 pm] |
i wish i was pretty
edit: not letting you get ME down (; |
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[May. 20th, 2005|12:27 pm] |
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i cant live here anymore. everything here makes me so depressed. i wish i had money for that apartment, i regret spending my money on pointless shit. i cant make anyone else happy, until i figure this shit out and no one understands that. i hate this house so much, its not even because im a teenager and it doesnt have anything to do with "they dont understand me" bullshit, its just their personalities, outlook on life EVERYTHING. they are so caught up in the superficiality of american living its ridiculous. enough with the fucking american idol, and survivor and go ENJOY living instead of wasting it sitting infront of the TV. holy shit it makes me so mad. if this wasnt going on at home, everything would be perfect. i love my friends and my boyfriend. i just need to work this shit out at home before i can start hanging out all the time again. please understand that baby :/ ily ♥ |
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[May. 19th, 2005|08:45 am] |
alrighty, im here in graphic design with nicole and sal.
and im boreddddddddddddddd. so here are some pictures:
chillen
this is my boyfriend and his lil sister that i talk to on the phone.
my fav piano. |
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[May. 18th, 2005|08:59 am] |
my allergies SUCK!.
im going home after 4th period,
and going to sleep.
leave me alone, bye. |
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[May. 11th, 2005|10:10 am] |
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hm. past week things werent too great with my parents. other then that things are awesome. mothers day was alright, we all walked to pilgrim and met up with brandon, sal and melissa. then my dad decided to flip about tattoos now . . ? how much later. oh well. so i left my house. kim and i looked at apartments yesterday. theres a really good deal that we might get (: anywayssssssssssssssssss. yesterday we went to long beach and hungout with justin, zak, james, pretty and whoever else. we didnt get home till 3 but im not tired today . . was gunna go to school but nooooooooooo kim says no. hah. ehhhhhhhhhhhh lets search more apartments. BYE! |
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[Apr. 10th, 2005|10:37 am] |
i went to an open house at oneonta yesterday, it was awesome. i love the school and the people soooo much. theres a lot of kids like me too so i was happy. the guy that was our tour guy was so hot haha and we talked the whole time. i seriously cant wait until i go away to college. its going to be amazing. im happy that im this excited about it too. im also excited about mah new tattoo, vinny did this one too. hes hysterical, so we probably will chill soon. ehhh at night chilled with mike chris and kim. i dont really want to write about anything else so i shall leave you with a picture.
( hi ) |
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[Apr. 6th, 2005|06:43 am] |
The Very Basics
Full name?: amanda lee rothenbucher
Nicknames?: AR
Age?: 18
Gender?: chick
Height?: 5'4
Weight?: 122
Hair color?: blackish
Eye color?: Blue
Location?: lawng island
The Outer Stuff
Any tatoos?: yes
Piercings?: yes, 12
Describe your outfit: rock n roll underwear, and a camo shirt
Relationships
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nahhhhhhh
Do you have a crush?: of course
Do they know?: yep.
Is it mutual?: lol, you try n find out.
What's stopping you?: outta mah league
Sex sex sex
Straight, Bi or Gay/Lesbian?: straight
Are you a virgin?: nope
When was the last time you had sex?: a week or two ago.
Where?: car
What would be your dream place to have sex?: in the summertime at mt. hood in the snow.
Do you masturbate?: honestly, no
How often?: 0
What's your number-one fetish?: hmmmm i dont really think i have one.
What's your favorite position?: on top
Beliefs
Do you believe in God?: i believe there was once someone who fit the description of god and he was so great that people held onto the thought of him for so many years.
Do you believe in Satan?: nah
Do you believe in Hell?: no
Heaven?: nope
Nirvana?: yes
Currently
What are you wearing?: rock n roll underwear and a camo shirt, didnt you ask this already?
What are you doing?: being lazy and not wanting to get ready for school.
What are you listening to?: the shower running
How are you feeling?: great.
Where are you?: computer room
Last...
Person you hugged: kim or chris
Person you kissed: chris
Person you missed: mhmm (:
Person you wanted to get away from: parents +brother
Person you wanted to hit: my brother yep
Person you wanted to yell at: you
Person you wanted to run away with: (:
Person you IMed: mike
E-mail you sent: livejournal? haha
Time you were embarrased: all the time, but its k
Moment you wanted to last forever: being with you
Moment you wanted to die: when im depressed???
Time you cried: awhile ago
Time you laughed: yesterday
Time you couldn't stop smiling: love it
Favorite...
Band: hmmmm right now a perfect circle
Food: I LOVE FOOD!!!!!! but i love chocolate the best
Drink: caramel frappacino
Candy: snickers
Ice-Cream: buttercrunch at friendlys
Book: hmmmm theres a tie.
Author: tie as well
Poem: none
Poet: no
Type of music: a lil bit of everything
Store: candy store (:! kiddin uhmmmmmm
Article of clothing: jeans
Sport: snowboarding
TV Show: gilmore girls!!!!!!!!!!
Movie: a clockwork orange was mad good
Video Game: lord of the rings
Board Game: no
Holiday: easterrrrr
Day of the week: friday
Month: december or july
Have you ever...
Cheated on someone?: yes
Snuck out?: at other peoples houses
Stolen?: yes
Smoked?: yes
Done drugs?: yes
Drank?: yes
Broken the law?: mhm
Been arrested?: almost a bunch of times
Been in a fist fight? yep
Won a fist fight?: yep
Gone skinny dipping?: mhm
Lied?: mhm
Ran around in the rain?: mhm
Been so afraid of a nightmare that you couldnt sleep?: yeah but i usually pass out eventually
Been in love?: puppy love
The Loose Ends
Agree with martyrdom?: ?
Position on abortion?: for
Position on the death-penalty?: for
Agree with self-punishment?: for
Trust your government?: nah
Do you want to find love?: not at the moment
Do you wish you were a better person?: sometimes |
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[Mar. 26th, 2005|07:59 pm] |
im so happy i could cry.
(i choose to l i v e.) |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2005|06:17 pm] |
alright, so today i stayed home from school again . . i woke up not feeling well and then i just got way worse :( it sucked. soo i just took some pictures. hopefully i feel betta 4 this weekend. . .
( pictures ) |
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[Mar. 21st, 2005|09:53 pm] |
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i'm not in a good mood at all. things were going good, now they are just so confusing again. . i dont know what to do with it all. i feel like shit too, im losing my voice and my throat hurts. i really hate the situations i get myself into. ive also come to the conclusion that there is no such thing as a best friend in highschool. its only until the next hot guy comes around . . whatever its not like i trust anyone in my life anyways, why start now. eh im gunna stop this random rant now otherwise ill say something wrong, like the truth. |
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|04:43 pm] |
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er. i want to go snowboarding so bad on saturday . . and for the rest of the saturdays until the end of the season, but no one can :( maybe i can convince my mom to let me drive up there with my brother and my cousins, or maybe my grandpa will take us. who knows . . |
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[Feb. 26th, 2005|11:15 am] |
today is my birthday.
& my hair is black :0
bye!
( ra ) |
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[Feb. 20th, 2005|09:01 am] |
this morning i woke up thinking i new exactly what i wanted . . that soon changed. :/ i have no idea . . it sucks a lot. today im going shopping with my nanette and going out to lunch with her too. i think im getting a printer for my digital for my birthday from her. then i have work from 4:30-8:30. probably going to come home and do my hwk and all that and catch up on sleep. . . who knows. okay im going to go get things done that ive been meaning to do for awhile now (cutting my hair?) bye ♥
( nevertheless, she was a mess. ) |
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[Feb. 19th, 2005|06:17 pm] |
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completely vulnerable. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2005|12:48 pm] |
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im very excited . . kim and i went snowboarding and it was awesome, and my stomach didnt flip out once (: |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2005|07:13 am] |
today i decided that i'm going to start keep a scrap book . . by year, instead of just throwing everything i have into a box. i also decided that im going to buy a polaroid camera . . i've always wanted one so i'm going to get get it before the snow comes. it will be cool to take pictures of my friends and i and keep it in the scrap book. i woke up this morning at 6:30 because i went to bed at 6 last night. i didnt feel good and i thought i was just going to take a nap, but i guess not haha. im going to dye my hair today too, just a shade darker and taking out the blonde. i might trim it too. im excited (:
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[Jan. 13th, 2005|09:41 am] |
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it's time for a change. |
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[Dec. 25th, 2004|08:41 pm] |
goodbye new york,
hello portland. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2004|10:33 pm] |
i couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
she felt it everyday.
and i couldn't help her,
i just watched her make the same mistakes again.
what's wrong, what's wrong now?
too many, too many problems.
don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
she wants to go home, but nobody's home.
it's where she lies, broken inside.
with no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
broken inside.
open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
you've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
be strong, be strong now.
her feelings she hides.
her dreams she can't find.
she's losing her mind.
she's fallen behind.
she can't find her place.
she's losing her faith.
she's fallen from grace.
she's all over the place
she's lost inside, lost inside . .
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[Dec. 21st, 2004|04:43 pm] |
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the other day in school there was so many old memories and it was fucking awesome. i visited james today cause he was sick. im sick also. i cant wait till portland. sick bro |
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[Dec. 18th, 2004|12:19 pm] |
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i'm bored and sick . . but for some reason i feel really happy. i wish i wasn't sick and bridget coulda gone upstate to go snowboarding. im so excited to go to portland . . i love going to new places and meeting new people. it was my brothers birthday yesterday and we had the family over. it would have been better if i wasnt sick. my aunt and grandma are over today to put things together for portland and to exchange presents since my aunt wont be here for x-mas. i still need to get presents for people, if i feel better tomorrow ill do that. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2004|03:16 pm] |
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hey. today i decided that i wasn't going to let my feelings that i have and don't have run my life. i need to start worrying about myself, and help myself before i can let people into my life. so yeah, heres to a new start. |
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[Dec. 7th, 2004|08:09 pm] |
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it's really hard for me to trust people. most of my friends i don't even trust, they are just there for me to have a good time with, not to talk to about my feelings. so many people in highschool are backstabbers and liars, thats why id rather not open up to them and have the chance of getting hurt. even when i think i can trust someone, they feel like they can't trust me or something stupid like that. like getting mad at me for talking to someone. i hate that shit, i dont have a repuation of going behind peoples backs and being a slut, so just leave me alone. i dont even think the guys in my school or who i know are good enough to even think about liking because they just suck. i also hate doing the same thing all the time, its so boring. i love doing new things and not having to do drugs to make things fun. i also love being alone and going out to take pictures. i also love being alone and snowboarding. i hate not being able to trust people, but then again im happy i dont because then i cant get hurt. i hate hearing from people who were supposed to be my friend that they are saying shit about me. im so over the whole drama thing. if i have something to say, ill say it to your face and if your too much of a pussy to say it to mine and be mature, then im just going to kick your ass. why waste time worrying about what they are going to say next, they need to learn to keep their mouth shut. its like, is that really what your life is drama? get over it. its so dumb. theres so many people i have talked to about something personal and the next day i hear that so and so heard that i think this from the person i origionally told it to. if your my friend, keep it to yourself if i open up to you. if you dont want to be my friend then tell me to shut up if i say something to you so i know you dont care. random rant, kbye. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2004|06:21 pm] |
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